Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Day 5 - {Mom and Dad}

100 days of gratitude tag  I look ahead to the next few days, and I am scared. Scared at what emotional earthquakes might be triggered by the anniversaries about to happen.

10/31 the last day I felt Benjamin move - the day he died

11/1 the day of my last doctor's appointment before the scheduled C-section - when I saw the doctor's face grow very serious and heard him say, "I'm not finding a heartbeat"

11/2 the day Mom and Dad and Joseph and Becky and Mandy and Ari arrived to help us - my last day to hold Benjamin inside me

11/3 the day he was born - our only day to see and hold him in this life

A few weeks ago, I mentioned to Mom that it would be so wonderful to have them here to help us celebrate Benjamin's birthday. I knew that they would come if they could, but I also knew she and Dad had been traveling a lot, and Dad is under a lot of pressure at work, so I tried to invite them in a way that wouldn't make them feel bad if they couldn't.

 

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Meanwhile, in case they couldn't come, we made plans to go up to northwestern Arkansas this weekend and see the fall colors. I couldn't stand the thought of being here at home alone for the Anniversaries.

 

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It is a 17 hour drive from Mom and Dad's house to ours.

 

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I just called them an hour and a half ago, and they were leaving to come!!

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They will take a detour to Dallas to pick up my sister Becky and her little cutie and arrive here tomorrow sometime.20060715-2 Nana with a sleeping Hyrum edit

I feel so blessed to have parents who would be willing to make such a drive just for a four-day visit to help one of their eight children!

 

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9 comments:

Malauna said...[Reply to comment]

[tears] That sacrifice just shows how much parents care - and that they will do anything to help their children in their crises.

Becky said...[Reply to comment]

Amen. I am SO grateful for our amazing parents. They have taught me so much of Heavenly Father's love.

Andrea said...[Reply to comment]

Yeah, I am so happy that you will have some family here. I love family. I am grateful that you will not be alone. Now is the time to be surrounded by those you love. I hope you know the Swensons love you.

Mom/Nana/A. Nancy said...[Reply to comment]

Thank you for your sweet comments, Michelle. We do love you, Chris and those brilliant, bouncing Baker boys. We're so glad we can be here to celebrate the privilege of having Benjamin in our family eternally.

snbjork said...[Reply to comment]

Wow, as soon as I read, "I just called them an hour and a half ago, and they were leaving to come!!" I had floods of goosebumps all over! I am so excited that you get to be with some of your family during this challenging time!!! Having them there will make it so much more bearable and special. I wish I could be there too (I'll try not to be very jealous)!!! Have fun! I love you.

Tasha said...[Reply to comment]

Hello Mishelly! It's been a while since I've been able to come visit your blog and my oh my, I had a lot to read! From what I can tell writing seems to be very therapeutic for you. I'm glad. I miss you and wish we had the opportunity to be much closer. But I'm very happy to see that you have other such wonderful friends and family. Please know that I'm thinking about you during this difficult time and love you!

I also very much appreciated your blog about the election and November ballot. I too find it extremely frustrating to figure out how to vote - I don't really trust any politicians and the propositions are just as bad to figure out. But there is no question in my mind on at least one of them - California's Prop 8= YES! (www.protectmarriage.com) Everyone please keep us in your prayers on Tuesday!

Amy said...[Reply to comment]

Wow that is amazing. What a blessing! Love you! :)

Amy Kay said...[Reply to comment]

Parents are great! My mom told me she wished she could be in court with me. I was there on Friday-Halloween and got it all finalized. Thank you Heavenly Father, such a burden has been lifted from my shoulders.
I am glad you get to be around family, they are the best. Eternal families are wonderful!
MY prayers are with you this week. I am sending my {{{hugs}}}
Love,
Amy ;)
P.S. If you ever need to talk, I've got good ears for that. :)

Andre said...[Reply to comment]

Parents are the best. I'm so glad you have them there with you. I am thinking about you and hope that all goes well for you and your family.