10/31 the last day I felt Benjamin move - the day he died
11/1 the day of my last doctor's appointment before the scheduled C-section - when I saw the doctor's face grow very serious and heard him say, "I'm not finding a heartbeat"
11/2 the day Mom and Dad and Joseph and Becky and Mandy and Ari arrived to help us - my last day to hold Benjamin inside me
11/3 the day he was born - our only day to see and hold him in this life
A few weeks ago, I mentioned to Mom that it would be so wonderful to have them here to help us celebrate Benjamin's birthday. I knew that they would come if they could, but I also knew she and Dad had been traveling a lot, and Dad is under a lot of pressure at work, so I tried to invite them in a way that wouldn't make them feel bad if they couldn't.
Meanwhile, in case they couldn't come, we made plans to go up to northwestern Arkansas this weekend and see the fall colors. I couldn't stand the thought of being here at home alone for the Anniversaries.
It is a 17 hour drive from Mom and Dad's house to ours.
I just called them an hour and a half ago, and they were leaving to come!!
I feel so blessed to have parents who would be willing to make such a drive just for a four-day visit to help one of their eight children!