Friday, May 30, 2008

I carried him across the river


I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service (Romans 12:1).

Present your body as a living sacrifice. Sacrifice: the word comes from the Latin sancire, meaning to make sacred. That’s exactly what I was doing: offering my very flesh and blood to God, to meet his purposes, to fulfill the desires for children he had planted within me.

Yesterday's cover story in the Meridian Magazine is one of the most beautiful expressions of the significance of womanhood I have ever read. At first I avoided it because of the picture of a pregnant woman--I am ashamed to admit I still struggle with my feelings when I see pregnant women or new babies. But something told me it was okay; go ahead and read it. I'm so glad I did! This author writes powerfully about the inestimable value of the sacrifices we make to fulfill our part of Heavenly Father's plan, no matter what our situation in life.

I have always sensed a sacredness about our power to bring children into the world, despite the physical challenges. In past pregnancies I feared miscarriage so deeply, believing that then all the pain and discomfort already undergone would be wasted. During the experience of losing Benjamin at 38 weeks, I was taught by the Spirit that it was not a waste at all--that the physical trauma I went through to carry and deliver this precious baby, even though he never breathed outside the womb, was a small price to pay for the rich reward of now being mother to a celestial son!

Read the article here.


snbjork said...[Reply to comment]

Michelle, that was such a great article. Thank you for sharing it and your personal thoughts. You shouldn't be ashamed that you are still struggling. I imagine that is a completely natural reaction for someone who has had your experiences! You're a great lady for admitting to your weakness. We, none of us, are perfect! Imagine that. Anyway, it was a great reminder that all the "stuff" we go through is certainly not a waste at all. Only a testimony to our willingness to serve God (as uncomfortable and difficult as it may be at times)! I love you and can't wait to see you next week!!!

OR Duck Fans said...[Reply to comment]

I really enjoyed reading that article. My first pregnancy was a miscarriage and I have always felt like I will have a chance to raise that child if I live righteously. I really admire how you are able to express your thoughts. Thanks for sharing. Lashelle

Becky said...[Reply to comment]

Beautiful expressions in that article and in your post. It helps me to honor and appreciate pregnancy and motherhood more.

Mom/Nana/A. Nancy said...[Reply to comment]

I loved this article too. Your sincere comments are a help to all of us.

Deetsgirl said...[Reply to comment]

I happened on your blog from reading Marc and Megan's. Thanks so much for sharing. I am so glad that you mentioned that you have trouble seeing pregnant women. I feel so guilty trying to explain this to people. I know that I am blessed to be able to raise one of my son's, but I feel so cheated that my pregnancy was shorted and I can't raise my twins together.